Answer

I have been getting a lot of questions as to when David are going to be trying for another baby and I figured that I should just post about it because every time I answer the question, I feel like a part of me dies just a little bit.  Not that I have ever had a problem with discussing our infertility, I actually find it therapeutic.  I think it just reminds me about how hard the decision was and about how much I wish it were a different answer.  I am pretty sure my entire being aches every minute of every day to be able to have another baby as soon as possible.  I don't think a day goes by that we talk about how much we want to add to our small family...and tears are shed just as often.  I just don't have it in me to talk about it anymore.  I try really hard to find the good in our little life we have here and I find when I focus on this one thing, I start to go to that place where I just feel like it isn't fair.  I know the question of 'when?' that we get is out of love and I hope no one is offended that I brush it off.  This is more for me than anything, I suppose.  I am just to fragile about it these days.

With that said, to answer the question, we are waiting at least another year before trying IVF again.  Lots of factors went into our decision and although neither of us wanted to admit that waiting was the answer, it is the answer.  We don't know exactly when we it will happen and when we do decide I am not sure how much of the plan we will want to share.  What I do know is that we love all of our friends and family for all their support.  We are sure lucky.  And just like when we got Adam...it'll be worth the wait.