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I have been getting a lot of questions as to when David are going to be trying for another baby and I figured that I should just post about it because every time I answer the question, I feel like a part of me dies just a little bit.  Not that I have ever had a problem with discussing our infertility, I actually find it therapeutic.  I think it just reminds me about how hard the decision was and about how much I wish it were a different answer.  I am pretty sure my entire being aches every minute of every day to be able to have another baby as soon as possible.  I don't think a day goes by that we talk about how much we want to add to our small family...and tears are shed just as often.  I just don't have it in me to talk about it anymore.  I try really hard to find the good in our little life we have here and I find when I focus on this one thing, I start to go to that place where I just feel like it isn't fair.  I know the question of 'when?' that we get is out of love and I hope no one is offended that I brush it off.  This is more for me than anything, I suppose.  I am just to fragile about it these days.

With that said, to answer the question, we are waiting at least another year before trying IVF again.  Lots of factors went into our decision and although neither of us wanted to admit that waiting was the answer, it is the answer.  We don't know exactly when we it will happen and when we do decide I am not sure how much of the plan we will want to share.  What I do know is that we love all of our friends and family for all their support.  We are sure lucky.  And just like when we got Adam...it'll be worth the wait.

12 comments:

The Holyoaks said...

Love you so much!

Karen said...

Lots of hugs! I'm here for you!

SSToone said...

I really apologize if I was being insensitive or rude when I asked you that question on our movie excursion. I would have never just asked unless it was part of the conversation. I think you're amazing and tough and know what's right for your little family! Good luck with the IVF journey when the time comes again!

Zachary Truscott said...

The Truscott family loves you and is always here to support you! You're in our prayers and we miss you!

Courtney said...

I am so sorry to hear that you have to deal with this struggle! You have a beautiful family and whatever happens in the future, I know Heavenly Father loves you!

Jessica said...

Hang in there girlie. You are Strong and know that you are being taken care of and a loving Father is aware of you.

MariePhotographie said...

I don't know anyone that doesn't absolutely love your family, and I am one of them! Big, big hugs, Nani family. :)

Misty said...

I'm sorry you guys have to go through this. Sometimes being a grown up stinks. Hang in there and know we all love you to pieces!!

AmyJane said...

Love you. We all know it's harder than hard. Talk when you want, stay quiet when you need to, and come up with a bratty comeback for the busybodies! :)

Terina said...

Such a personal question that people toss around so easily never knowing the sting it can carry with it. I love you and your perfect little family! So does the Lord. Remember when things get hard pray and pray some.more and then pray again. If you ever need to talk I'm here for you! Hugs my friend.

Stacy said...

Karen, That was a brave thing to post because it is so private. I know everyone loves and supports you but that doesn't always take away the sting of disappoint. Faith is a great support on these difficult journeys. Also, chocolate.

Stacy said...

Also, it's a little sad when you can't spell disappointment.

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